I thought she was my soul mate I don't trust myself to make these decisions anymore I believed love at first sight, by some law, must be mutual between two That notion has to be ripped out of me I move on from here on out No love is guaranteed

Me canse de tu nombre y de tu aire De tu mirada Y de tu voz De saber que aunque te amen Tu no despierta Me canse de mirarte Y la esparanza en ti Porque me estuve enamorando De una false idea Por primera vez no me enamoré De alguien por su apariencia Si no, por su profunda identidad Y por eso cai fuerte Me arranco de ti Aunque yo llores por mil años

Me canse de tu nombre y de tu aire De tu mirada Y de tu voz De saber que aunque te amen Tu no despierta Me canse de mirarte Y la esparanza en ti Porque me estuve enamorando De una false idea Por primera vez no me enamoré De alguien por su apariencia Si no, por su profunda identidad Y por eso cai fuerte Me arranco de ti Aunque yo llores por mil años

A few years of desire I never meant to feel this way In fact, I never should've But this desire to be caressed by you Goes back to when we first pushed away You from me Me from you Turn away is what we've done And I stand here Healing A wound not yet complete Still tears through me I'm almost suffocated by the thought of you Saved by my sigh What a reflex! I could've died and ceased to contemplate you further Contemplate on the very fact That words you've said to me Were spoken into other ears. The heaviness in my heart Doesn't equate to a human connection My anxiety in the absence of hope I see you in my arm as a soul mate Yet all we do is hide But profound misgivings in my heart with regard to time, love, and self-importance makes the difference between angst and anxiety. My emotions are planets away from the ground that I stand on.

She almost fell on her knees Love had overtaken And although she put all her might to forgetting A face she could never forget All she wanted was for God To bring her back or make her stay away forever She'd never felt that...not this emotion And to help her love survive this world She was willing to disappear For her love could not see That all she needed was stillness in her presence And she pictured them in her mind She with a book while her love focused on her work In the same room Occasionally holding hands Briefly stopping everything for a kiss

Quiet has finally found my mind and possessed her Tears are forming I can feel them The act I've contemplated I've fulfilled I need not think of it To much time I have wasted This much I must regain I shouldn't waste time and emotions I shouldn't waste love I should stay how I wish to be And say goodbye to you Forever

Life By the time you're done with me It will be hard to knock me down You've slowly built me up With iron link One by one Though pain can permeate the gaps Of my steel & iron suit My armor holds me still And it takes much more to get through The gentle heart inside Through the storms A through the fire No matter what you bring I will stand sturdy on two feet Clenched fists will go up to battle And I lone tear will seep Barely moist once through You are life Love and hate Joy and pain Calm and chaos Strong and tender You've built me so Though I feel pain You've placed reason in my view Because of you I am courageous

Remote Control

(Unrevised) When you were still around You played with remote control cars Spent all your time making sure That everything would be alright I have so many emotions All I could do is sigh An overflow of the memories While you're gone so far, so high Any way I could reach you I'd climb the highest tower Don't run from me when I reach you Cause I could try to be A remote control airplane Flying high in the sky How can I reach you When you've gone so mighty high Any way I could reach you I send prayers I send them high I pray God to keep you In my heart you are alive I'm living each moment in suspense Every new notice grips me My Guardian Angel I believe

So that I can love you still With my eyes soaked I must say goodbye With my tears flowing I'll say goodbye...now We could fight all day and discuss all night All the things we're doing wrong But if we fight and fuss til the love is gone The love all goes away The love all goes away And I want to save some love So that I can love you still I could never come to saying Anything wrong about you

conflicted

Unrevised draft If I were a flower, would I be conflicted? The sun wouUnrevised draftld rise after the bone breaking cold of the night. At first with its gentle warmth...making love to my petal skin. Dew would dry, replaced by the dry smoothness of my skin. Until, suddenly, the sun becomes the overwhelming lover that she is and I remember the coolness of the night and the contrast of her weak luminance. And I begin to long for her presence and and eventually her touch. The moon...gentle. she's is nothing like the sun and stands quietly while I sleep. I turn my face from her gleaming eyes and she responds by turning cold. Colder so with the turning of the clock until I loose all the warmth of my blood to this overpowering queen. She takes me and freezes me in time but if I realize her fretfulness I will loose this night forever. No longer in love with her I will long for the gentle warmth of the sun.

Baby Mia

There is no fight left in your frail body The light is far gone from your eyes There is no warmth All hope is lost So soon...you're gone I see the tears run down Your mother's face See the clenched fist Your father makes And, if disappearing could solve This mess Your memory would no longer exist So they cry and cradle One another The way they would've done If you... They sigh and sigh Their world has been shattered But nothing... nothing could bring them back you.

Cielo Rojo

Siero los ojos y comienzo a vivir Triste y alegre La vida es asi Veo un parsaje Y un rio en un lado Un rio de agua violeta Reflejando un cielo rojo Me recuerdo como ayer Y pienso todavia en ti Los dias son tan largos Y haveces no queda tiempo para nada Ironias y suspiros Fuerte y alguna veces con el corazon partido La vida es asi En mi sueno, el rio de egypto En el centro de San Jose de Las Matas Despierta, tus ojos sonriosos Mano en mano La felicidad es asi Como el dia en termino Se acuesta el sol Y como una bailarina de flamenco Enseñando el color de su falda Me enseña un cielo rojo