Time stands still in my mind My memories are snapshots That will never fade away To hold my present up to And compete It competes and fails It competes and exceeds It competes but the desire to push those memories behind will never yield much I feel those thoughts crawl into my todays And they snatch at my heart They put fear in me And they make me raise my head to the skies in search of God I tremble inside And I seek strength from the same place that houses those memories Somehow that is not ironic It is how life is A burden and a joy

Amor, amor No eres lo que me imaginé Quisas terminaré sola sin ti Talves hare algo que te impresiones Para que te quedas siempre a mi lado No se No me lo meresco? No piensas que yo sea capas de apreciarte? Me haces llorar y me hieres con tantas falsas promesas. Illusiones se han presentado a mi con promesas vacias. Me duele no tenerte. Quisieras tener un amor para siempre. Para toda mi vida. Te amo, amor!

Pleading with no hope

Simultaneously... You are spectacular in your beauty And I am appalled by your monstrousness But I cannot help but to love you You bring me nothing much but chaos With your coming and going Yet, it's like I've never left your side Because each moment I've remained in the embrace of your touch...so very rare...by now just an anamnesis when I'm barely here and now And when I'm asked about you I remember my composure only at first I say that I love you and for that love I had to let you be And my heart truly melts and I become frail again I'm no longer who I wanted to be And I say how much I detest you But I love you It's that very monster that I see in your physical being... ...that I see within me What you cannot hide from yourself You will see everyday But one doesn't deal well with what they are not accustomed to And so, I suffer my loss and the reality of my existence That I love you is not a secret to anyone They even know that you are my first really love With no doubt- no hesitation I've always doubted I would know you But now that I do I've also discovered a piece of me

I thought she was my soul mate I don't trust myself to make these decisions anymore I believed love at first sight, by some law, must be mutual between two That notion has to be ripped out of me I move on from here on out No love is guaranteed

Me canse de tu nombre y de tu aire De tu mirada Y de tu voz De saber que aunque te amen Tu no despierta Me canse de mirarte Y la esparanza en ti Porque me estuve enamorando De una false idea Por primera vez no me enamoré De alguien por su apariencia Si no, por su profunda identidad Y por eso cai fuerte Me arranco de ti Aunque yo llores por mil años

Me canse de tu nombre y de tu aire De tu mirada Y de tu voz De saber que aunque te amen Tu no despierta Me canse de mirarte Y la esparanza en ti Porque me estuve enamorando De una false idea Por primera vez no me enamoré De alguien por su apariencia Si no, por su profunda identidad Y por eso cai fuerte Me arranco de ti Aunque yo llores por mil años

A few years of desire I never meant to feel this way In fact, I never should've But this desire to be caressed by you Goes back to when we first pushed away You from me Me from you Turn away is what we've done And I stand here Healing A wound not yet complete Still tears through me I'm almost suffocated by the thought of you Saved by my sigh What a reflex! I could've died and ceased to contemplate you further Contemplate on the very fact That words you've said to me Were spoken into other ears. The heaviness in my heart Doesn't equate to a human connection My anxiety in the absence of hope I see you in my arm as a soul mate Yet all we do is hide But profound misgivings in my heart with regard to time, love, and self-importance makes the difference between angst and anxiety. My emotions are planets away from the ground that I stand on.